You know what's funny?

I've found that when you try to sever ties with one person, but you want to do it cleanly, it can be excruciatingly difficult to do so without accidentally severing ties (uncleanly) with somebody whom you have no intention of severing ties with.  Maybe it's just my conviction that you should never leave somebody in a place of absolute despair that's gotten me into a huge pile of crap these past few days.  As a matter of fact, I know that that's what's put me through hell these past few days.

I'm so naive.  I believe that people can be helped, that I can help people.  What happens when it turns out that their plight was just an act?  What then?  I get ROYALLY SCREWED.  Maybe if I stuck to my pessimistic roots and didn't make any attempts at idealism, I wouldn't get hurt every time I turn around.

Christ, I hate this.  I need to write an angry letter.